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    Fumble

    I can’t remember if I shared this before, but I have visual perception issues.  I’m using fancy words to tell you that what I see in the mirror is not what I see in pictures.  In the mirror, I’m not bad looking.  I love my body shape, and I’m cute in the face.  But baby, when I see pictures of myself, I get slapped back into reality. And that’s a curse, because I love pictures.  I like documenting my life in film (or digitally nowadays).  Looking back at my life gives me joy.  I like seeing young Sareta in her 20’s with her friends.  Or even elementary school sassy pants…

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    Help My Unbelief

    Fasting….ugggh. I kept getting the message that I needed to fast from various sources. You can tell from the opening line of this blog that I wasn’t there yet in my thinking. If you’ve read this blog for any length of time, you know that I have a serious love relationship with food. I use it to celebrate, to socialize, to soothe, to comfort, and to be a companion when I’m bored. So, the thought of turning over my plate was ludicrous…until. Until life just kept hitting. And didn’t seem to be getting any better. I was doing okay but that wasn’t good enough. I wanted more. I wanted the…

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    Wheels Up

    I hadn’t flown in the last 8 years. So much has changed since I was a frequent flier. First, let’s talk about security. Maybe we were on a red alert day, but I had a tough time getting through. Since the last time that I flew, they have implemented the total body scanners. I got in the scanner and assumed the position…feet spread wide and hands in the air. I came out, and the lady said I needed to go through again. She instructed me to pull my pants all the way up to my crotch and really spread my legs apart. Side bar: I’ve lost some weight recently, and…

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    War Room

    Life happens.  That’s generally what I say when I’m inconvenienced, or things don’t go my way.  I rarely say that when I’m getting everything that I want and exactly how I want it.  In those moments, I’m blessed and highly favored.  But that’s still just instances of life happening. As long as I’m alive, and as long as you’re alive, life will happen.  Unfortunately, I have neglected one of the key elements of being prepared to deal with life-the good AND the bad.  I’m not setting aside a specific time, or place, to pray. I think, for many Christians, we deem our drive-by prayers to be sufficient.  After all, we…

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    Whole for the Holidays

    Thanksgiving has passed us by, and Christmas is quickly approaching.  When I was a child, this time of year was magical.  I looked forward to all the sweet treats that would be baked.  I enjoyed watching my family play cards and joke with one another. Unfortunately, with age, the holiday season lost some of its sheen.  Sweet treats were still being put into the oven.  The family continued to gather to fellowship.  But it wasn’t the same for me. Maybe it’s because we’ve lost so many family members over the years.  When we gather together, it’s a reminder that we’re not really whole.  Maybe it’s because it’s so routine for…

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    Behind the Scenes

    I love behind the scenes information.  Don’t you?  I was all about watching the two-hour Game of Thrones behind the scenes special.  Seeing the actors faces when they read through the scripts of the final season for the first time.  When they realized what was about to happen. So, I’m offering a more behind the scenes glance at the mechanics of this blogging world.  For some reason, people think I create the stories that I tell.  They think I’m a good weaver of tales.  Nope.  It’s my real life. I felt so anxious the first time that I had to push “publish” on my website.  It felt so permanent.  In…

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    Credit Score

    I’m single.  Like, I’m single single.  I’m a lady that lives alone with her cat single.  Now that I think about it, this may be the reason that my mom had such a strong aversion to me getting a cat.  She doesn’t want me to be a single cat lady.  She wants grandkids. She’s not the only person that wants me to have kids.  People ask me all the time when I’m going to be a mother.  Or when I’m going to get married.  My response is generally, “You better talk to God about that because I’m waiting too.”  If you read “I Said Yes to the Dress,” then you…

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    Don’t Keep Silent

    When I started this blog, my plan was to post maybe three times a week. Let me emphasis that this was my plan. I felt that God wanted me to post every day, but I wasn’t quite on board with that. I went through a list to rationalize why my plan was the better plan. People get annoyed with over posting. And when I say people, I mean me…LOL. I really don’t have that much to write about. What if the subjects dry up? I’m not gonna be out here just doing something. Then what God??? Posting every day is a big time commitment. Especially when this wasn’t my idea…

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    Vow Renewal

    The day that this particular post is released was going to be my wedding day. If you read “I Said Yes to the Dress,” you know about my broken engagement, my embarrassment, and ultimately my surrender to God’s will for my life. As this day approached, my bestie asked how I was feeling. It was the beginning of October. Life was clicking along. I responded that I felt fine. And unlike other times in the past, I really felt fine. Actually, I feel more than fine. I feel grateful. I feel peace. I feel that I’m finally starting to realize the purpose that God has for me. Focusing on wedding…

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    What is Forgiveness? Part II

    Super heros are an amazing creation. It’s even more incredible when you know one in real life. To me, that person was/is my sister. For the majority of my life, I’ve seen her do the most difficult things with extreme ease. She is, by all accounts, the purest definition of black girl magic. I aspired in a lot of ways to make my sister proud of me.  She was my first best friend and de facto parent when my mother wasn’t around. What does any of that have to do with forgiveness or finding out what it means you ask?  Well, all siblings fight.  And our biggest fight was surrounding…

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