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$225,000
$225,000. I got paid today, so it was time to sit down and figure out this bill situation. It usually takes me awhile to decide how to disperse this money. Although my bills are constant, my paycheck fluctuates. I’m contract. That means if I don’t work, I don’t get paid. Missing one day of work hits differently when it means that you have to think about who is not going to get some money. If I was a GOOD steward of my money, this would not be such an issue. I would have money tucked away for all of the rainy days and mishaps that are going to occur in…
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Under Construction
Rats terrify me. Especially the rats that took over my home. I’m not being deep or poetic. I’m being literal. I closed on my home on February 29, 2016. I was excited, but honestly, I was mostly thrilled that the fun surprises of buying a home were over. Such a fool. My home was built from the ground up in 2008. So, it’s fairly new. Unfortunately, the previous owners had different ideas of what taking care of a home means. The front door had an indentation from an ax. Mold abounded in the vanity of the master bathroom because of a leak under the sink. The carpet was all kinds…
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Take Me to the Water
I confessed Christ at Sam’s Club on a Saturday. Way back when the Metroplex Event Center was a Sam’s Club. “Confessing Christ” is just a fancy way of saying that I said out loud that I believed in Jesus Christ. I wanted to claim Him as my own. I was helping my mom with our Saturday grocery selections. In those days, my family had an addiction to Clearly Canadian, and Sam’s had it in bulk. Just a little piece of heaven on earth. Alright, I’ll get back to the point. I asked my mom why you had to be twelve to be baptized. She told me that wasn’t true. I…
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Advanced Placement
Confidence is not my strongest trait. When things get difficult or seem like they’ll be too hard, I have a tendency to retreat. It’s a life pattern that I’m not proud of. The more I reflect on my past, the more I see God’s hand pushing me to trust Him. I took Advanced Placement (AP) classes in high school. I liked them because the grades carried extra weight. Earning a “B” in an AP class had the same impact as earning an “A” in a regular class. So, you could potentially have a GPA (grade point average) that’s higher than a 4.0. Mrs. Pickering was my AP English teacher for…
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Color Blind
Racism exists in the body of Christ. And it’s unfortunate. My Bible doesn’t read like there will be black section and white section in heaven. But that’s how we worship here on earth. Listen, I’m not talking about ya’ll. I’m talking about me. I’m a member of a black Baptist church. I’ve always been a member of a black church. Give me that saxophone, and the drums, and the organ, and the choir. (But ya’ll could turn the monitors down because I’m trying to preserve my hearing.) The interesting thing is that my first best friend was white. We went to elementary school together. Both of her parents were doctors. …
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Set Apart
I have been a member of three different, dynamic musical groups. I told you my life was a musical! Each group showcased a different stage of my growth and development. Walk with me as I recount my musical highs and lows. I didn’t want to go to college. It just seemed like such an insurmountable thing. How are you supposed to know what you want to do with your life? How do people even graduate from college? My answer was to make it big in the summer between senior year of high school and freshman year in college. Set Apart was formed sometime in my high school days. My Soul…
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What is Forgiveness? Part I
Six years ago this November, a couple days after my 26th birthday, my uncle was shot and killed. I don’t often think about it. In fact, most days I just lock it away in the deep recesses of my mind. I seal any emotionally draining thoughts inside a vault of ironclad stoicism just so I can function. I do this so I don’t break down. Reality can be harsh sometimes. I stare in the mirror and wonder what it truly means to forgive. And can’t seem to come up with an answer. Somewhere, deep inside me, it feels like defeat to say “Hey, I forgive you for murdering my uncle…
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Empty Seat at the Table
Murder. I told you in the first blog that it played into my story. I couldn’t have ever imagined it in my circle. That happens in big cities. It happens in any good drama on television. It doesn’t hit close to home, until it does. My uncle was murdered 6 years ago. The man who shot him left him in an open field. And my uncle died alone. Ashes to ashes. Dust to dust. I could give you all the details, but I honestly don’t even have the capacity. It’s an open wound that needs to be tended to, but I just leave it to fester. Is that healthy? I…
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I Got Panties On
Kids say the darndest things. I should know because my 9 to 5 puts me in close contact with them. I had just started a session with one of my 2-year-old friends when she exclaimed, “I got panties on!” Now, I’m the type of person that likes to deal in facts. And this was new information to me. So, I checked to see if her statement was based in reality. Sure enough, she had panties on…over her pull up. I’m not a party pooper (as mentioned in “I Climbed a Mountain”) so I celebrated with my friend. Congratulated her on being a big girl. Cheered and yahoo-ed with her. Then…
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Oh, Taste and See
Am I the only one that has a habit that they’re unaware of? My cousins and I went to Shake’s one day to get some ice cream. My little cousin got a flavor that I had never tried. She said, “I would offer you some, but you gon gross me out with that noise you make.” I was confused. I demanded clarification. She said, “You know that noise you make when you eat. All that moaning and groaning.” This led to a full cousin council and debate. They all insisted that I moaned when I ate food. Particularly ice cream. I needed people on my side. So I called friends…