Update, LOADING

Technology has greatly advanced our ability to multi-task and get things done.  It has made many of our jobs more efficient.  In some cases, it has made people’s jobs obsolete.  This week, technology took me through some highs and lows, but I lived to tell the tale.

I don’t often access my website from my phone.  I mean, I write it and publish it.  I know what’s on there.  But I wanted to quickly access a blog that I had written.  I pulled the website up on my phone, and to my surprise, there was no way to search for a specific blog. <insert shocked emoji>  Clearly, that meant that it was time for a website update.

I’m not going to lie.  I avoid fooling with the technical side of biblestudygirl.com as much as I can.  Once I finally developed a system, I didn’t want to mess up the flow.  Now, I had three months to fool around look of the website.  I had three months to figure out creating pages and jazzing things up.  But noooooooo!  I had to wait until I had a full-time job that required me to be well rested.  So, per usual me, I jumped in with both feet to start this update.

Well, it got hairy.  And by that, I mean I messed some stuff up.  LOL!  I can only laugh at myself.  Up at ten o’clock at night.  Huffing and puffing.  Occasionally screaming “WHY?!?!” at the top of my lungs.  Receiving disdainful side eyes from Fitz, my cat.  I’m talking a WHOLE hot mess.  I thought I had destroyed the entire site.  Yes, I had a backup, but the backup didn’t want to be utilized.

I stepped back from the situation.  I made myself a late night snack.  I took some deep breaths.  I played a game.  Then I came back to the situation and realized just how much of an idiot that I was.  With a couple of clicks, everything was back working.  I was relieved.  And sleepy.  I went to bed so that I would be ready for work in the morning.

Ya’ll this situation almost took me out.  I was so worked up.  I was actually livid.  I mean at times I thought about throwing my computer across the room, and my computer wasn’t the problem.  My attitude was.  You want to talk about meekness?  I like to think that there aren’t many issues that I can’t solve myself.  I like to think that I’m a knowledgeable girl, and even if I don’t know the answer, I know where to get it.  But you see where that lands me when it doesn’t go as I think it should?  In a state of anger. 

Told ya’ll that I constantly have to check my attitude.  I have to always remind myself that I don’t know it all.  And that’s okay.  What’s not okay is being unaware of effective ways to handle my old sassy self.  I had sense enough to walk away.  Pray for clarity.  Message my tech support.  Admit my limitations. 

Thankfully, the issue was resolved quickly.  However, I do realize that solutions to problems don’t always come rapidly.  And I need to work on maintaining my dignity while waiting on deliverance.  Even something as simple as updating a website can show you where you are in your walk.  Oh yeah, I’m totally not finished with the website, but at least it’s functional.  I’ll let you know when my behind the scenes work is completed.  Actually, you should notice the difference without me saying a word.  That’ll preach too, but I’ll leave it alone.  #wepreach