Behind the Scenes

I love behind the scenes information.  Don’t you?  I was all about watching the two-hour Game of Thrones behind the scenes special.  Seeing the actors faces when they read through the scripts of the final season for the first time.  When they realized what was about to happen.

So, I’m offering a more behind the scenes glance at the mechanics of this blogging world.  For some reason, people think I create the stories that I tell.  They think I’m a good weaver of tales.  Nope.  It’s my real life.

I felt so anxious the first time that I had to push “publish” on my website.  It felt so permanent.  In this day and age, I could decide to switch it back to just a draft but undoubtedly someone would have already screenshot it.  I felt naked and just out there.

As time has gone on, I’ve gotten over that.  I don’t hesitate.  I hear what God wants me to say, and I type.  Most often, He gives me a title, and I just start typing.  Generally, the end result is never what I thought it was going to be when I started typing. 

He also suggests pictures that fit the blog.  The first time He didn’t give me a picture with the blog, I panicked.  I had to have a picture!!!  I like order and sameness, and He switched it up on me.  Just another reminder that it’s not MY blog.  It’s His. 

Every time I sit down and type, He’s talking to me.  And gives me the privilege to share it with you.  Initially, it didn’t feel like a privilege.  It felt like a burden.  Even a punishment.  Because I had no desire to be open and real with everyone.  But ultimately, this blog has blessed me so much!  I feel freer and closer to Him every day.

I don’t sit down every day and write a different blog for the next day.  I tend to write in spurts of four or five and then move on to other tasks that keep my life moving.  You know, like work, and trying to maintain a home, and trying to maintain relationships with family and friends, and building an event planning empire, and writing a book, and feeding a cat, and scooping up cat poop, getting to a healthy place (spiritually, physically, emotionally, financially) and shopping (my favorite hobby, past time, lifestyle).

I detest the technical side of blogging.  I don’t like the look of the website, but I had to focus on content.  Listen, that’s growth ya’ll.  I’ll perfection something into the ground.  And it wouldn’t ever take flight because I didn’t think it was good enough.  The website will be so pretty one day, but I’m focused on fulfilling His mission.

Initially, I would check the traffic numbers on my website daily.  I needed to know that somebody read the blog that day.  I mean I knew my mama was going to read it, but I wanted to see at least 2 visitors everyday.  That meant that my mama read it and pressured at least one of her friends into reading it.

I had to stop looking at the numbers though, because it was driving me crazy.  Some days there would 70 and the next day 10.  I had to remind myself that I didn’t start blogging to get numbers.  I started blogging to help that one person that God wanted to reach.  And it might literally just be my mama that needed to know everyday that God loves her.  And God loves her so much that He sent me to remind her of that every day.

Thanks for your patience on this behind the scenes tour.  I mean you get behind the scenes access every day, but today was a different kind of access.  I almost forgot to let you know that you can reach me directly at biblestudygirl2019@gmail.com.  You can send me prayer requests or ask me questions about your walk with Christ.  Now look ya’ll.  I’m not a Biblical scholar, but I’ll certainly do my best to point you in the right direction.  #wepreach