Until It Happens

My first kiss happened in the rain.  Not a complete downpour and not a drizzle.  It was that spot in between.  And, for me, it was magical. 

I’m a nerd from way back.  Books and my imagination have been my company since I can remember.  While I have a heart for people, I can often stay to myself.  Relationships get messy.  Communication falters.  You get hurt.  So, a first kiss was a teenage dream that I thought would evolve into a young adult dream.  Until it happened.

For others, their teen years were a dream.  Child, I was dreaming of adulthood.  I wanted my own place, my own life.  I wanted to chart my own course and show my family the way that life was supposed to be lived.  I didn’t like the example of marital love that I had in my own home.  In my mind, I would do it different.  I would do it better.  But that wouldn’t happen if I couldn’t get a kiss.

Clearly, I was an idealist.  As an adult, I have better perspective of what it takes to produce a strong marriage.  I realize that there are external pressures and internal struggles that impact the stability of a relationship.  People have to be willing to grow and mature together.  Both parties must be willing to do the work to have a relationship that will endure.  But as a dorky teenager, I was entangled in the mystery and wonder of a first kiss.

How did I end up going on a tangent about my first kiss?  Well, yesterday I was thinking to myself that I wish I could take so many things back.  I want to rewind the past and erase some questionable choices-financial, relational, spiritual.  Then the song, “All in His Plan,” began to play in a loop in my head.  At one point in the song the singer says, “I dare you to trust Him right where you are.”

It might not mean a thing to you, but it blessed me in my current struggles.  God is not stuck on the missteps that I had in the past.  I shouldn’t be either.  As I reflected on my past, my mind wandered all the way back to my very first kiss.  I had so much hope.  I was anxious.  I was anticipating it.  And when it happened, I wasn’t disappointed.

God is doing a new thing in me and through me.  He wants to give me all that He has planned for me.  I have hope.  I’m anticipating it.  And when it happens, I won’t be disappointed.  #wepreach