Satisfying My Appetite

My greed, while I was in college, helped start my pitfall into credit card debt.  Now when I say greed, I know you are thinking about a materialistic pull to have all the possessions that I want.  Like new clothes or home décor.  Naw.  I am talking about physical greed. 

Your girl was hungry.  I ventured over to Subway with two friends of mine.  Side note:  I was a lady that lunched throughout my college experience.  Back to the story.  We pulled open the door, and there, right beside the entrance was a sweet lady with an even sweeter offer.  We could get our submarine sandwiches for free.  There was just one simple thing that we needed to do.  We had to apply for a credit card.  The sandwich was ours whether we were approved or not.

In the very back of my mind…like really far back, go further back…yup right there…was the voice of Bible Study Mama.  She was yelling for me not to do it.  She was reminding me that I did not need a credit card.  Unfortunately, she was so far back there that I could not hear her clearly.  Huh???  Did someone say something?  Oh, well.  I filled out that application quicker than a Beyonce tour sells out.

I do not remember what kind of sandwich I got, but I remember the day that 2 credit cards came in the mail.  I was on top of the world!!!  In my hands, I held the key to more fabulous lunches.  Honestly, I do not recall being completely out of control with my spending.  A purchase here and a purchase there eventually led to both cards being maxed out.  I was then stuck in an endless cycle and back and forth dance with paying them off with student loan money and running them right back up the next semester.  My greed got me into a lot of trouble.

My dance with credit cards and credit card debt did not end there.  I have danced and dabbled with credit card debt since then.  It is so easy to go deeper and deeper into a pit once you get started.  Over the past year, God has curbed my appetite and interrupted this dance with debt.  I am being more intentional with my finances.  The pit is deep, but I am confident that the Lord will pull me out.  In the meantime, I will be making sandwiches at home and side-eyeing anyone that approaches me with a clipboard.  #wepreach