Ma Doodle

There are so many stories I can tell about my mother and how much she has sacrificed for me and BibleStudyGirl. She is a shining example of Godly service and I don’t know where I’d be without her. One of the defining moments in my life that let me know how much she trusted God, and consequently how much faith she had in me, was before my first year of college.

Now I’m not being mean to myself when I say this, but I wasn’t the most dedicated student in school. If you couldn’t tell from my post about my wife, I liked to write my own stories more than I liked paying attention to anything else. It wasn’t that I couldn’t do the work, but I just wasn’t as motivated as I should be. With all this being the case, I didn’t have many colleges, or any for that matter, knocking the door down to give me a scholarship to attend their school. So to get into college with my G.P.A, and to be able to make it out of state like I wanted, I was going to need to take out a loan.

Now I’d never done anything like that and I didn’t even know how to in the first place. So my mom decided to give me a chance and do it for me. This came with a lot of rules and stipulations, mind you, but I didn’t have any other choice at the time. My mom did this for me without a mumbling word (to me at least lol.) She took a chance on me when I didn’t even know how to take a chance on myself. Without my knowledge at the time, she dealt with so many people telling her that this was the wrong move to do for me. So many that said I should just figure it out and that I wasn’t going to do what I needed to do. With all of this on her shoulders, she stood tall and still made a way for me to follow my dreams.

Sadly, I didn’t make it but one year away from home before I had to come right back home. I didn’t fulfill my end of the bargain, and thus the time spent and the reward of accomplishing my goals were no longer in front of me. When I think of this time, I often focus very hard on how I failed. On how I lost a great opportunity and didn’t come through for my mom like I needed to.

What God intended to show me here is that while I don’t deserve it, He shows me grace. My mother doesn’t rub in my face my failures. She instead pushes me to accept them and keep pushing forward. She is honest with me and allows me to know that my actions have real consequences if I’m not careful. She believes in me even when I don’t believe in myself. We forget sometimes that God gives us grace and love while we have done nothing worthy of it at all. He gives us a million chances to do what we need to do all because we are His. It doesn’t come without a whooping or two, but it’s still something to remember. I am so thankful that God has placed such a dutiful angel in my life. His example lives greatly in the woman He chose as the perfect mother for me. Thank You Ma Doodle I love ya. #wepreach #GiveRosesMonth