Breathe

Listen, I am in a struggle to get myself together over here. My mind is jumbled with various thoughts. It is not that I do not have anything to say. I have tons to say, but I am having difficulty settling. I am having a hard time focusing and making my point get straight to the point. I typed sentences and erased them several times because they did not feel right. They just were not right for this moment. I got FRUSTATED. Typed some more and erased it all again. Made notes for future blogs and still could not find the right words for this blog. I wanted to quit, but I knew I had words. Just not the right words.

Typically when I get this frustrated, I walk away. And when I say “walk away,” I mean not revisiting the subject ever again. When I say “not revisiting the subject ever again,” I mean cut ties with this whole blogging thing. Who needs it??? Well, clearly I do. And someone else does as well, or the good Lord wouldn’t be asking me to do it. Instead of throwing my laptop across the room or writing an easier blog on my list, I sat in my uncomfortableness. Instead of pretending that all was well, I literally closed my eyes, put my hand on my heart, took some deep breaths, and asked the Lord what I was supposed to do.

Now nothing mystical or spooky happened. I did not hear any whispers or bells ringing. No goosebumps appeared on my flesh. No inspirational text from a friend came right at that moment. But the Lord met my need. Instead of focusing on my anxiety, I focused on Him. Deep inhale. Deep exhale. Until I was calm. Until I was centered.

Such a simple thing. But it has been so underutilized in my life. Ya’ll I love to make a good plan. And when the plan gets thrown off, watch out. I am bound and determined to get it back on track. But remember, I’m leaning into obedience and doing what He told me to do. And today, He told me to breathe.  I am so glad that I did.

How can I keep you guys in the loop on my journey with obedience, if I do not tell you about my struggles with obedience? Watching someone’s evolution in real-time makes the victories that much sweeter. What are you struggling with today? How can I pray or encourage you on your journey to better? If you encounter moments that make you anxious today, I encourage you to stop (even when you are telling yourself that you do not have time to stop because things need to be done…lol) and breathe. Settle in and let the uncomfortable feeling subside. I am a witness that God will meet your need. #wepreach